i was running into circles w the monsters in my head
i can't sleep no i can't focus w the demons in my bed
causing too many problems
falling into exhaustion
sorry mama i'm nauseous
i'm running out of my options
schizophrenic
i’m seeing monsters
i think i’m nauseas
i need somebody
are u here with me?
i think i’m scared of my fantasies
coming alive as they come for me.
fighting all these monster in my head
feels like i gotta hold my breath while i’m
fighting all these demons in my head
pen to my notebook till they dead
i need designers, fast cars, the commas
crib for my mama
that’ll solve my problems
momentarily.
until the reaper comes for me
and puts me 6 feet underneath
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i'm smiling i'm dying i'm trying
i'm lying i'm high and you crying
we're broken you're speechless denying
afraid to speak up so i'm silent
telling me to stay away from the danger
but i was having conversations w/ a stranger
putting my life inside a never ending wager
im sorry mama it was only in my nature
i've escaped the crowd in me
all the space that's clouding me
mama you'll be proud of me
i put to my grave
i was running into circles w the monsters in my head
i can't sleep no i can't focus w the demons in my bed
causing too many problems
falling into exhaustion
sorry mama i'm nauseous
i'm running out of my options
2 roses will grow in our own concrete place
told me that i remind you of my fathers face
these roses will blossom on the rainiest days
don’t want u to struggle, swear we’ll be okay
